Sleep still a feral beast

Yesterday morning I had to go back to bed and get some more sleep. I just couldn't wake up. I guess my  sleep deficit had become too great.

However, a better morning this morning: I got up and had a shower first thing. That helped. I'll have to use showers more often to wake myself up so that I can be more attentive and productive.

Though I am still unable to convince myself to stop and prepare for bed early enough in the evening. Last night I stopped at 9:30 am but then thought I would just clean out the old entries and categories from another of my blogs. Two hours later I was in bed.

So I am up this morning and doing well, but only after 4 1/2 hours of sleep. Not enough to sustain me.

Comments

[Russel Montgomery]

Hey Hamo

Life has been pretty busy. So I am just getting back to respond to your comment.

I don;t agree that it is self flagellation. it might be more honest than normal and so sounds a bit freaky. I do that... I just say it how I think it or how I feel it. I think that kind of transparency is valuable... that expression of the inner struggle... but its definitely not normal in our world

Does God want me to sleep more? I don't know. I don't get messages about details like that. I tend to think that God like us to handle those kinds of details for ourselves. I think that God is more interested in how we treat others.

Actually that one of the things that bugs me about evangelicalism... the straining the gnat but swallowing the camel syndrome.

But thanks for your concern. I do appreciate it.

Russel

[hamo]

I am curious Russell...

It sounds like you really need more sleep but feel a compulsion to make yourself do without?

What is happening there?

It reads a bit like self flagellation and my guess is that it actually works against the life you seems to desire.

Perhaps God would rather you sleep more. Is that a possibility?